A Different Approach to Twin-Flames, A Full Analysis

Introduction

Prepare yourself for a long post! My last blog post was a while ago now, I was writing about how I’d merged with my other half, what some may know as a twin-flame. Since then I’d come to many new realisations about how this twin-flame business works and wanted to lay out a new understanding for which people can refer to to gain a wider understanding. I haven’t yet got all the puzzle pieces sorted out but this is going to be a comprehensive guide which combines many different twin flame theories and allows them to work as a harmonious whole. I’ve been searching for the greater truth of these connections now for a long time and am finally feeling like it’s all coming together. After experiencing three different twin-flame connections myself and since having the healing session in January that was blocking me off partially to higher consciousness, new intuitive information has come in as well as my own logic that allows me to see the larger picture of the entire thing. Take this guide as you will, but for me it’s the only thing that has ever successfully explained what these twin-flame connections actually are and how they work.
 
In the past I have been an adamant defender against the split soul theory, but as time has gone on I have come to understand it in its wider context, how it is true in one sense, but how in another it is limiting when we only approach it from the one angle and fail to see it from the larger multidimensional perspective. To fully understand this though requires that we go back to basics and fully explore and uncover everything that makes twin connections exactly what they are, starting first with the exploration of what a soul actually is and its workings thereof.

Levels of Attraction

First I will start with something simple. In each human being there are four main levels of attraction. These are: physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. On the physical level, physical attraction is very important. We love a person because of their looks. On the emotional level we love them for the emotional comfort/security they provide us and also the romantic and sexual desire we experience with them. On the mental level we love a person for their intellectual capabilities, and their similar way of processing and making logical sense of their reality. And on the spiritual level we love a person for the love and wisdom that they hold in accordance to our own.

When it comes to attraction, we need all four of these aspects to be switched on otherwise we will be less than satisfied. Many people enter into a relationship solely for the physical looks, or for the romance and sex, less people enter a relationship for the intellectual stimulation or for the spiritual love and wisdom they hold. The reason for this is that many people are not fully mentally or spiritually developed, so they are only content with two of those four aspects being fulfilled. Or they think they are content, but really they feel a huge sense of lacking when they are with a partner who doesn’t provide them with that full connection. This inner void is what their partner is highlighting to them- the fact they are not whole, and the fact they cannot share their entire being with someone.

In order to feel satisfied in a relationship you first need to be fully functioning in yourself, so that you can then connect with someone on a similar level. So as we grow and evolve spiritually, the type of partners we attract to us change too. They become less primitive and more advanced.

The Nature of the Soul

Now of course, these four aspects are corresponding to the four main levels of the auric and chakric energetic system each of us are as spiritual beings. In many people only the first and second auric layers and chakras are fully active and awake, which respectively correspond to the root and sacral chakras. In a lot of people the mental layer is partially developed, the solar plexus chakra, and in only a minority of the population is the spiritual layer partially developed. The spiritual layer for basic intents and purposes consists of the heart chakra, throat chakra, third eye and crown chakras as one larger layer. When a person is partially developed on the spiritual level, their heart chakra and corresponding causal body will be developed along with their throat chakra and the corresponding etheric template which allows them to express love, but their consciousness will not have developed the higher monadic spiritual awareness of the third eye and crown chakras which allows them to simply ‘be’ pure consciousness.

So to recap, there are four main auric bodies, with the last auric body being split into lower spiritual awareness of the heart and throat chakras and higher spiritual awareness of the third eye and crown chakras. Each main body has its own patterning and templating which includes information of its state, its past life experiences (future lives too in case of the higher bodies), and it’s spiritual evolution. When you meet someone you are attracted to, chances are they are going to share that similar patterning in at least two of the main auric bodies that you do. What happens during this process is that the auric bodies see that something is similar and hence compatible, and hence the process of sharing energies begins, which triggers the connection.

The soul itself belongs to the spiritual body, as it is a spiritual essence. This means as most people are not in touch with their spiritual bodies, neither are they fully in touch with their soul. They do not know who they truly are. The soul itself can be said to be a ball of energy, extending from the energetic sea of the universe and source consciousness. There is no separation between the individual soul and anything else, being that the same web of energy connects it and everything else together- however its expression is unique, and so you could imagine this like a bubble in tub of water, it is all water and it is all of the same essence, but the bubble extends from it as an individualised point of consciousness. The bubble being its own unique expression has its own signature, or if you like ‘fingerprinting’ which identifies it as itself, and no other soul.

But just as the soul is an extension of universal source energy, so too are the different aspects and auric/chakric layers of the human being an extension of individualised soul consciousness. In a spiritually advanced person, the soul governs all the bodies as a unified energy field, its parts working as one in what can be referred to as the light body. The light body is the higher spiritual auric and soul layer that becomes integrated as a part of the entire being, reabsorbing into itself all its parts. This doesn’t mean that the physical, emotional, or mental layers disappear, rather that they work directed under the spiritual and soul layers, functioning in harmony as a reflection of the light body rather than being disconnected from each other and fighting for dominance of the physical vessel.

Light body Compatibility

As previously mentioned, the patterning in the auric bodies is what allows for attraction. When there is a similarity in patterns there is a compatibility, and depending upon where the compatibility is, is where you will find the type of connection. There is emotional compatibility, mental compatibility, and spiritual body compatibility. As the spiritual body can be separated into two distinct parts, there is also lower spiritual compatibility, and higher spiritual or light body level compatibility. Light body level compatibility is what allows for the soul-merging between twin-flames, lower spiritual level compatibility is what allows for the strong sense of energetic attraction between other awakened soul-connections, and mental level compatibility is what also allows for compatibility for soul-connections who are not yet fully spiritually awake. Emotional and physical body compatibility only is the hallmark of your average 3D karmic connection, but more about karmic connections later.

What I want to focus on is the light body level compatibility as it pertains here to twin flames. The unique signature of each soul is identified through its light body patterning. Being that the light body is the higher level of the soul which connects us to soul consciousness, when two light bodies are compatible, that is, when they share similar soul signatures, they are able to start the process of soul-blending. This process starts first with the recognition of similar templates or light body patterns and consequently all other chakric and auric layers, which then moves onto the overlaying, and finally the merging and healing outcome of the merging. Overlaying is what happens when two light bodies literally overlay each other, after realising how similar they are on a templating level, and rather than staying two separate consciousnesses, then merge to become one instead. This, on a basic level, is like realising you have a triangle, and they have a triangle which is the exact same shape and size and colour, putting them together side by side, then melding them into one larger triangle of the same shape, colour and proportions. The only thing that changes is the size. This is why soul-merging radiates so much love, because as your light body becomes twice as large, your entire energetic being becomes twice as large too.

Now, imagine you have a triangle and they have the exact same triangle, but their triangle is in a bad state instead. Perhaps it’s damaged- many people’s auric layers are damaged or just simply missing as their spiritual bodies disconnect from their being and go wandering in other realms to escape the harshness of this 3D world. When one person has their light body even partially embodied, this means when they meet another person with a compatible light body, that light body will return from the energetic pull so the merging can take affect. Any damaged parts of a light body, when overlayed with a patterning that is not damaged, becomes healed. So the damaged triangle becomes whole again as it takes on the attributes of the undamaged one. What this means though, that as a light body becomes healed and embodied within the physical vessel, all the other auric bodies that are effectively an extension of it become affected too. So any issues you have on the emotional and mental layers are going to experience a rush of new energy from the light patterning which itself is an extension of source energy… and be erased, and replaced with the new templating. However if the emotional and mental bodies are resistance to this process (and they usually are), they will experience severe pain as this happens.

Twin Energy & the Threefold Flame

Twin flame energy is something I have mentioned before. Twin flame energy is basically source energy that is ignited with the heart chakra as unconditional love once the soul starts integrating itself into the physical body and remembers itself. This energy, is known as the threefold flame. The threefold flame carries the attributes of higher soul or monadic consciousness and burns brightly once activated or ‘awakened’ within the heart chakra. The heart chakra is the connection between the lower personality and the higher self and as such purifies the lower auric bodies as it’s ignited through the reconnection or healing of the light body.

The threefold flame gets its name from the three main attributes it embodies in itself as higher soul or monadic/divine consciousness. The first flame or attribute is blue and is the flame of divine will which allows creative manifestation. The second flame is yellow and the flame of divine wisdom and knowledge, and the third flame is pink and the flame of divine love. These flames correspond to the three main monadic rays, one of which our own monadic consciousness will be an extension of. My own monadic ray is that of wisdom, which means the yellow flame will burn more brightly than the other two within my heart chakra. However all three will be active and a good balance is meant to be established with growth and evolution. Through these flames the lower auric bodies will eventually all hold these main attributes of love, wisdom, and will, and be a reflection of the divine rather than disconnected discordant consciousnesses that are submerged in lower density junk and negativity.

Now, what happens when two light bodies start the process of connecting and healing, parts of each light body that were before absent or damaged and preventing of source energy from entering the lower spiritual and auric bodies as well as the physical body, become open and available for healing. What this means is that when you soul merge with someone, they open up your heart to your soul and source consciousness, and allow that flame to burn brightly. This usually triggers an awakening, and is what feels like a huge amount of divine love entering you from the other person. So you call this person your twin flame because they share the same light body patterning which allows the same flame or energy of source consciousness to burn brightly within the heart chakras and start purifying the system, allowing the personality to become aware of its own higher consciousness.

It should be noted here however that as everyone shares the same source consciousness (being that it’s ‘source’, of all-that-is), any person who has that light body compatibility with you will be able to stream in the exact same universal consciousness in those areas of patterning that are exactly identical. So it’s not exclusive only to two persons. The merging can happen on different levels with different people, and this is what I want to get into next. Not every light body is fully compatible, sometimes they are only partially compatible, that is, not all the patterning is identical within them. This I will start to explain next.

Basic Connections

From my experience, there are only two basic kinds of soul-connections. These are the traditional soulmate and karmic connections. A karmic connection as everyone knows is someone whom you have interacted with in past lives, and thus the connection becomes one centered around cause and effect. When you are nice to them in one life, they will return to you in another life and be nice back. A karmic connection with enough time and interaction can be turned into a soulmate, that is, as the two souls become gradually similar through their continued interaction their light body patterns will begin to change to reflect each other. The light body doesn’t stay the same but instead morphs and expands as the individual evolves. Soulmates are those souls with which the light body has a large amount of compatibility with and which has either morphed over time through karmic interactions to reflect each other more perfectly, or which were already similar as a part of being part of the same original soul group.

As each soul is born they are not born separately. They are often born in groups, which are usually the groups of a larger planetary group. This is why the souls of a planet will often be at the same level of consciousness as each other, because they were created at the same time. However, being that source loves to express itself perfectly, it will split itself into many different reflections of itself. You can imagine this like colours of the rainbow, there will be seven main groups of souls within a planet, which have groups of their own and groups of their own too. So within the red spectrum there are seven main shades of red, which are also split into seven shades each, creating a huge compatibility within the light body at that level, being that the similarity between these closest souls is so uncanny. 

These souls are your birth-right family. Each one is a unique reflection of you, being that you are all so very similar and compatible on a light body level, almost identical in fact. If you think about the rainbow spectrum again, if you are the colour orange in your immediate soul-group, then the colour red and yellow are going to be either side of you, making them the closest souls in your group. There may or may not be an identical reflection of you (commonly called the original twin flame split soul), but that is not for the purposes of this post. Because what happens over time, is that as you grow, you become different, your light body patterning changes and you form new soul groups over time. This is also why more advanced souls will have more connections, and more developed at that. They have had a lot of time to explore these bonds and mature them.

Just like your human family, you may not eventually get on with all of your soul group, you will grow apart and migrate to different groups that are more a part of whom you are becoming. As this happens any original split soul twin flame will evolve into their own unique expression too, and eventually over a long period of time may have nothing in common anymore. And this is why karmic connections can become soulmates given enough time, as your light bodies become more similar through multiple shared life experiences. And what this really means is that whilst you may have originally come from one group and been perfectly identical to another soul, over time you may find yourself perfectly identical to a completely different soul or partially identical to other souls as you continually explore the bond and experience of merging and morphing your light bodies into that of similar or identical expressions together. In a nutshell, soulmates are not who you are, but who you want to become. And karmic connections can work towards this too.

The Spiral of Life

I want to touch a little on the spiral of life. I have mentioned this before and I will explore it again here. The spiral of life is an incredibly important concept, everything in life is essentially a spiral. The spiral comes from the Fibonacci sequence or the golden ratio which is a perfectly infinite number, and is the essential pattern of the universe which makes up everything. When you take the idea of spiritual development back to the basic underlying foundation of the spiral, you see that growth is not linear, but instead functions as a spiral. Through spiralling in our understanding we eventually come to realise our own wholeness… it feels like we have come full circle, but instead are back to where we started with a wider perception of our original starting point.

Now, imagine that anywhere you are on the spiral of development is your soul signature for that particular moment in time. The souls you attract to you for merging will have a similar signature, creating their own ‘soulmate spiral’ with you at the center. The closer ones will be more energetically compatible to you, whilst the ones further out on this soulmate spiral will be less compatible with you. The further out you get the more karmic these connections become. And as you grow and develop down your own spiral as a soul, these connections will spiral in and out, closer to or further away from you, becoming either more or less matched as you explore more of whom you really are as a soul and whom you really want to be.

In this way, soulmates are not part of a fixed larger multidimensional entity, but rather shift as your own soul and light body templating morphs over time. They are part of an ever changing continuum of close connections, with the closer soul-connections likely being fairly static over larger periods of time, and the farther out karmic connections shifting quite drastically in shorter periods of time. So rather than see soul-connections in terms of mathematical constants (we have one twin, ten near twins, 132 soulmates, ect), we can see them as moving variables dependent upon your own soul exploration. The spiral concept also allows for two souls to see each other differently, meaning, one soul in the connection could put the other soul as being quite close, whilst that other soul might feel like the connection is less intense, However, generally the two souls will think of each other quite similarly due to the shared history between them.

Types of Merging

Now, this gets us onto the different types of merging. At the center of your spiral is your own unique soul signature. The closer soulmates are to us, the more they match us energetically (due to the shared light body patterning as mentioned before). When they think, feel, and behave in largely the same ways due to the same auric templating, their own energy can be experienced through each other, allowing the shared experience of emotions, thoughts, and energy. There is nothing mystical about this, only that they are experiencing the same things through each other that they were always experiencing apart, only after the merging process as one larger being instead.

The closer soulmates are to you on this spiral, the more they can merge with you. Inversely the further apart they are from you the less compatible they are for merging. What this means is that souls further apart from you will only be able to complete a partial merging, whilst souls closer to you will be able to complete full mergings. A full merging is when the light body patternings are roughly 75% identical. A partial merge would be around 50% identical. These are not exact figures but rather a rough estimate which probably has some leeway and room for adjustment.  However, a partial merge is what many will call a ‘near twin’. You merge with them partially, and they often act as a catalyst for awakening and meeting a closer soulmate with whom full light body merging and remembrance can occur. 

On top of that, I need to add in that twin-flame connections are not just between soulmates, but between karmic connections too. These karmic connections will often provide themselves as a catalyst rather than a closer soulmate so as to spare you the agony of hurting a soulmate as you heal and go through the purging process. It is near impossible to lash out at a true soulmate and hurt them due to the incredible bond of love shared, so in physical incarnation they are not actually beneficial to spiritual growth and soul-remembrance. So instead a karmic connection will come along who is compatible with you on a light body level but whom you have rarely interacted with before. These are contracts made between karmic connections to help each other evolve and grow and can sometimes turn into soulmates of their own too as they become more permanently closer together on their respective soulmate spirals.

So to sum that up, you can have karmic partial merges and karmic full merges. Both a karmic and soulmate partial merge can be considered a near twin, so this is why there is such a mix up and confusion with definitions. People might think they’re talking about the same thing but they’re really not. My own near-twin was a soulmate, whilst my karmic twin was a full merge.

One Last Note on False Twins
I want to close with a couple of paragraphs on false twins. False twins are basically karmic twins, and ‘true twins’ are those closer soulmates whom you’ve at least partially merged with instead. A true twin will never intentionally hurt you as I mentioned previously, however a karmic twin can and often does hurt you as you go through the purging process and release from you everything that doesn’t serve you. This is why they are called false twins. They function as a mirror in the truest sense because they are more a reflection of whom you were and whom you don’t want to be any longer. So in order for the situation to resolve with them you have to come to full healing inside yourself which cuts the karma.

On top of this, karmic or false twins will not experience the merging process with you as you have with them. That is one sure way to tell it is a karmic twin rather than a true twin. They have come solely to heal you. They don’t need your light body patterning, but you need theirs. Think of it as, all the patterning that you are compatible with, yours is damaged, but theirs isn’t, so they can heal that. However they might be damaged in just about every other place but because you are not compatible at that level you won’t be able to heal them. This energetic connection is completely one-sided and once it’s served its purpose and has fully awakened you will disappear, allowing a true twin to come along for merging. Unfortunately though, many people hang onto these karmic twins, and these are the majority of people these days who are actually experiencing twin flame connections. 

When you hang onto a karmic twin past its time, then things start going south. Because they cannot offer you any healing anymore and they are not spiritually available for full union, and all the energy they gave you, they see it transforming you, unconsciously wanting it for themselves, not realising it actually came from them in the first place. So they start draining. If you are not careful and cut it off when it’s time you will end back up at square one, in an unhealthy and codependent relationship. You will be draining their energy wanting this divine love back (which was only source being allowed to enter you as your light body patterning was fixed), and they will be draining you wanting this source energy that you are now embodying to some extent. It becomes vampiric and ruins whatever progress you initially made.

Conclusion

I honestly don’t think I’ve ever written so much before, but this about sums up my entire personal experiences and soul knowledge as its been revealed to me so far. Having experienced a partial merge with a soulmate, a full merge with a karmic connection, and now a full merge with another close soulmate, I feel like I have come to full circle with my understanding of these types of connections. I will add that with the karmic full merge, it will only be temporary along with any attraction to the person because it is one sided and will never be sustained, so there are sustained and unsustained merges. A sustained partial merge will often happen with a near-twin who is a soulmate, whilst a full sustained merge is what will happen with a soulmate when both are fully whole and awakened within themselves. They will not be exactly 100% identical (because then they would cease to have the two separate expressions of form), but they will be close enough to be considered ‘true twin flames’, that is, the closest soulmate and energetic match you have incarnated in physical form and whom was really meant for you as your ‘one’, if you only allow it!

Thanks for reading 🙂
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Part 2 Meeting my Other Half, more Solar Plexus Expansions, and 5D Collective Twin Energy

I’m going to lead on from my previous post, about my experiences lately with my other half and the realisations I’ve been coming to. Now something that was quite cool to me was that this new soul-connection of mine turned out to live in the same country(England). It felt like a miracle because before my connections had been all around the world, my previous two twin connections were/are in India and Philippines, making physical meeting more or less impossible for the most part. Although I wasn’t ready to meet my previous twin-connection anyway, I had a lot of issues to overcome first. Let me tell you, if you think these connections are intense over the net, then you have no idea what it’s like in real life!
Okay I might be over-exaggerating a little. Maybe it depends on the person. When we met my other half didn’t experience anything dramatic because he’s not as energetically sensitive as me (to be fair I would have a hard time finding someone who is more energetically sensitive than me), but after our meeting that’s when the energy got really intense for him. Sort of like it was waiting to pounce. But when we first met the first thing I noticed was just how easy it was to be around him, how calm and relaxed I felt. But then I noticed my energy started dissolving. I actually felt like I started dissolving, and couldn’t tell who I was anymore.

I could feel the edges of my aura expanding and stretching into what felt like infinity. And my solar plexus was hit the worst. It was about thirty minutes in, we were walking on the beach (thank goodness for that really) and I started breaking down in giggles, but the kind of painful giggles that turn into cries because you can’t breathe and you’re about to vomit and pass out. The energy became so strong I collapsed right then and there on the green, and the passing people were probably very worried. But then being flat on the ground allowed earth energy into me and I immediately felt stabilised, and we spent much of our time after that sitting on green patches of ground.

What I learned from our meeting, well one of the things anyway, is that I am severely ungrounded! It can’t be helped as I spend so much time in higher consciousness, but I realised part of our process of becoming balanced by the other was not just him opening up to higher consciousness, but me becoming more stabilised in the earth, and not so much floating in the clouds (even if to me it doesn’t feel like that, I feel perfectly stabilised in my own energy, not ungrounded at all, but compared to 3D reality I realised I’m very ungrounded and most of the time not really here at all. And really there’s nothing wrong with that as it’s my path to spend so much time in higher consciousness, but to go higher we do need to be ever grounded deeper). 

But when we were interacting, I realised for the first time how light I felt. I didn’t feel bogged down by my usual fears and worries that I didn’t even realise I was holding. The main thing for me is that I realised during that time I had no fear of being judged. None at all. And I was so much myself it was more like a meeting with me, the real me, than with him! And when he left (we live a couple of hundred miles away, not perfect but still better than thousands of miles away), I could feel such a change in my energy. At first I was confused because I felt so large, our merged aura went on for meters and meters, whilst my own aura is just over three meters now (more on that later), and then I felt my energy contract sharply and he did feel the same too. And then I missed more than anything that feeling of expansion, that feeling of me.

Now I know I need to work on releasing the rest of those feelings and holding that expansion and groundedness naturally without needing to be around him, that’s the point and that was the point of our meeting I feel, to stabilise our connection fully and to make us realise the depths of our souls more fully, who we are separately and who we are in each other. I took away a lot from that meeting, and had a huge solar plexus clearing a few hours after he left. It was the most awful thing but absolutely necessary. I now have hope for my solar plexus that it can be fully cleared out, but there is I feel still a long way left to go.

Now about the merged aura, that’s an interesting thing. I was writing beforehand about my monad integration, merger into the red ray, seventh initiation, and twelve chakric embodiment. I was writing about how I called him my twin ray because he was my monadic counterpart. These things haven’t changed, though my understanding of them has. I did complete a full twelve chakric embodiment which was possible from meeting him, the merge which has made my aura over three meters wide, and also changed the vibration of my seven main chakras. Me and my other half share a heart chakra now, and it was so strange when I checked out my heart chakra and where it used to be pink was purple instead, and three times as large. Same with my crown chakra which was magenta-red! That same red ray which I’d been working on integrating as part of the monadic and logoic mergers into the sixth and seventh initation.

So what’s happened is, I think, the purple crown chakra has descended into our heart, and the red 12th chakra has descended into our crown. Creating a fully embodied monadic expression in two bodies as one. Now this is where I want to change directions a little with the post. Because he is essentially my ‘other half’ right now, and maybe he was always my other half, I don’t know. I don’t know how these things really work(though I can speculate). But something I have realised is that what we have done is not unique to only one person who we like to call a ‘twin-flame’. This is my third experience of ‘twin energy’ within a person, within meeting a soul-connection. How can it be unique?

In actual fact, this ‘energy’ seems to be our own signature, our own love expressed through another person. Basically all soul-connections have the ability to experience this kind of unity, but are limited through their own lower awareness. Love is the language of the universe, all is love, love is all. We are all Love at the core of our being, and when we share that love with each other we experience ourselves as one… that is twin energy, it’s the recognition of your own divinity in someone you share a higher fifth or sixth dimensional connection with. Whilst third dimensional love is karmic and unpleasant, fourth dimensional love is between ‘soulmates’, this fifth dimensional love we attribute to only one person is also between ‘soul-mates’, just a level up! And as you keep becoming more and more of who you truly are, you experience deeper and deeper connections with those you love.

Never again will I say to myself “this is the end, there is no love after the twin flame experience” how preposterous! Twin flame energy is the love of the fifth dimension, as long as you are vibrating at that frequency you WILL attract someone to share that with. You will experience soul-sharing, there is no distinction between love, love on the 3D plane is seen as something unreachable… why do we want these perceptions in our twin flame experiences? Love is right here right now, we only have to realise it. Love can be shared consciously between everyone and anyone you want, and the more people who are aware the more we can turn this into a collective experience, where love isn’t hoarded or attributed to only one person, but seen for the unity it really is, the interconnectedness of God in us all, the beautiful experience of becoming one in two or one in three or one in five or one in millions… how amazing does that kind of love sound! Amplified like that between so many! And yet we push it away, due to our own limitations, due to our desire to own or feel like love is owned by a specific person… when it belongs to no one, it is all of ours. 

This is what you call shedding the ego folks, the ego likes to think “wow I have another half to my soul finally I can be complete”… it’s not like that at all. Soul-merging comes about only because you’re ready to know your own soul, and through that become aware of the whole new wide world of soul-merging, energy sharing, love-making, ect. You become greater than yourself, you allow love to flow through you, and just be, experiencing yourself as one, many, and all….

So, I may or may not have another literal half, but I am experiencing myself now as larger than two as one, three in one really when you think about it, me, my other half, and source. And it’s a beautiful experience. But I will never limit it or myself and say this is ‘it’, there is always greater, always more. And I believe and know that, and I am ready now to experience being more than myself, I am ready to enter the wide world of loving on all levels, to transcend fully the personal and yet, make it a truly personal experience within the third dimensional world. Bringing the fifth and sixth dimensions to earth, becoming a collective and unity consciousness gradually, step by step. I can see the new world will be beautiful, but we have to allow it and stop trying to claim something that was never ours to begin with. Just allow yourself to experience and move onto bigger and better things, more loving and joyful things, without getting hung up on the past and regrets….

Anything is possible when you are receptive!

Namaste.

Active Imagination, Fully Body Resonance and Liquid Fire

Since my healing session done on me last week I’ve learned many new things. The largest of all being my perception that’s totally changed and expanded. The solar plexus relates to the way we see ourselves. Our sense of self. Whilst before I felt selfish and only consciously did things for a selfish reason, I feel a new selflessness taking over. Instead of wanting or needing to drain people of their power to feel better, I have this new desire to empower others through my OWN power now.

After the healing session it made me realise how little I knew about myself despite my defiance that I was almost fully aware. Due to that I’ve made the conscious choice now to stop being critical or judgemental towards others.. I’m releasing anything negative in my energy field. That includes all worry or fear I still carry around. I’m being positive instead! I mean I thought I was positive anyway, but not as much as I thought I was. I still fear consequences from the past, and just realising that was crazy.

In order to understand more about myself again on a subconscious level I’ve reverted back to Jung’s active imagination technique, which I will copy-paste below from my other blog:

So I started this session laying on my bed, did a five minute mediation to clear my mind. It was pretty hard to get into the flow of things as I haven’t meditated for ages, also it was in the middle of the day so my waking mind was more active.
Anyway, I used my old way to start things. I visualised myself in a cave with a lake, but I found I didn’t feel right there anymore. I teleported to a sunny field where I saw a girl there spinning around happily. Don’t know if that means anything, but I wasn’t fully grounded into the scene at that point. So I used my old techniques to do that; felt the grass, smelled the wind, saw the sunshine. 
Then I was lead to a tree trunk, I walked to it and a door opened up. I walked in and was lowered back down into the original scene: A cave underground with a watery lake filling most of it. I was on the stony ground and I went up to the lake and peered in: I saw a fish which I think morphed into a huge monster thing. I didn’t really perceive the details of what it looked like, I just know it was a monster. I remember mostly black and red colours.  
I jumped back scared and the monster spoke in a deep gravelly voice:
(I don’t remember everything that was said so this is just the gist of it)

“Who do you think you are to enter my abode?” (the tone was intimidating)

Me: I-I’m Hayley, I was just wondering what was down here
Monster: Well now you know, don’t ever come back here again or I’ll bite your head off (curiously that threat is similar to a one my step-dad used to make all the time to me)
*monster starts to retreat into the water again*
Me: But wait
*monster turns around* what?
Me: I just wanted to know how you are?
(have no idea why I said this, it’s pretty much all guided by HS)  
At that point I felt something strange flicker through the monster’s consciousness, as if it was a long time since any one asked him that and he didn’t know how to respond. I also felt energy building up quickly in my body at this point.  
Me continuing: You must be pretty lonely down here all by yourself with no one to talk to  
Then that energy that was building up in my body just blasts through me and I growl as I release whatever it was I was releasing (growling tends to be normal for me when releasing stuff but this was more intense than usual).. I was knocked out of my imagination by the blast and then I start tearing up a little as I felt that loneliness that the monster had been feeling.  
Then I’m just laying there like what even just happened, try to regain my senses. I wanted to go back to visit the monster to continue whatever we were talking about but as I’m about to do so I take a deep breath and all these waves of light hit me in the face and I jump up sh-t scared effectively breaking my trance. Not the first time that’s happened!  

Karla wrote me in her manual that when I see those it’s actually split off parts of myself integrating back into my aura.

On top of that my dreams have changed nature. I used to dream all the time that my step-dad would be back and I would either conform out of fear or I would get angry at him and lose my shit. The second night after my healing session I dreamed instead that I told him calmly and joyfully “you don’t need to tell me what to do anymore, I’m an adult and can do it myself now”, and then the feeling of the ENTIRE dream changed! Last night I also dreamed that instead of my mother taking him back into our house (a common recurring dream for me), she came to me instead and started talking about how she was upset with him and wanted to leave. SUCH a reform! My unconscious is totally surprising me. I should really pay more attention to my dreams!

On top of that I’ve decided to become more of an active participant in my energy healing process. I’ve decided that no I’m not going to try and take over the process, but that I just want to help complement it. I have no need or desire to control it now. Though I still want to understand what’s happening, everything will be revealed in perfect time. I mean imagine if I found out this time last year that the reason I was puking was because I had an entity?! I wasn’t ready to know or to have it removed.

So concerning active energy work I’ve started experimenting more with thought forms. Creating shields is a basic thoughtform, though something I never realised was a thoughtform. I’m going to read up on shamanic healing for better understanding and techniques as that’s interesting me right now, but I tried cleansing my aura last night through a vortex and both felt and saw as it took on a life of its own. Afterwards I felt much lighter as before I’d started to feel bogged down again by the energy around me coming from family and next door. I’ve also been experimenting with channelling energy as well as creating ethereal replicas my crystals to use, and I have lots of cool ideas of where to go with this.

Anyway, my entity removal session was honestly great, and I want to copy-paste below a new Kundalini development in my expansion-evolution process:
I was doing my Kundalini kriyas, something I do about two-three times a week now because I can’t always be bothered to do it every night. Anyway, it first of all started off with a series of Uddiyana Bandhas about five minutes in. I found those to be painful before when I had my entity, as the prana would just hit the entity and make me feel sick as I was trying to release it. It wasn’t able to go past it. Tonight is the first time my body has done any for me since my healing this time last week. 
I noticed straight away no resistance. My stomach sucked in all the way and I just perceived emptiness. There was nothing blocking the center of the chakra. I don’t know where the prana actually goes to (I’m assuming the back of the chakra???) because I haven’t looked, it just feels empty there in the center during my sessions. Though I know there is more junk in it as it still comes up for release throughout the day and is still heavy sometimes (though I have a theory that the solar plexus might be the ‘expulsion chamber’ of negative energy from the rest of the body, since negative energy apparently usually enters that way too). 
Anyway, about five minutes in I noticed the difference in these series of Bhandas. Roughly five minutes more and I noticed my legs felt heavy. Then the back of my head felt heavy. Then my back. Sometime before then I felt a reassurance from one of my guides. I realise now that I was being pre-grounded. Then I start to feel dizzy. The back of my head is picking up more energy. All the time I’m spontaneously breathing deep and fast, I notice my legs start vibrating. The vibration travels up my body. 
Then I feel a cool water feeling trickling at the back of my head. The whole time I’ve been laying on the floor with my legs apart but feet together, my hands laid upon my solar plexus in some sort of position. I then feel the trickling water sensation at my sex chakra (not sacral, the one under that but above the root), and then all of a sudden what I can only describe as liquid fire starts rushing up my root, through my entire body, out through the back of my head. 

At this point I don’t know whether I’m in bliss or agony, I experience Kundalini rising all the time but NEVER as strong as THAT! 
Meanwhile the vibrating in my body is picking up an insane intensity. By this point I’m a live wire and if anyone touched me they would probably be electrocuted, I’m sure of it. I was vibrating like a mobile/cell phone does, all over, like my entire body was just completely in sync, RESONATING… I can’t explain, it was crazy ridiculous. 
Then I start giggling, like, uncontrollably. Can’t control it, just giggling away like mad. The giggling then stops and the energy just gets so intense I feel like I’m about to pass out. My vision was fading into white and I couldn’t go on at that point. I got up and tried to get the whole thing to slow down and stop. I started having another giggling fit during that time. 
Once that had passed I was just sat there on my floor shaking like one does when they experience shock. It was INSANE! 
Took a while to get my bearings after that. I’m now sat with my dravite to keep me grounded. 
During the whole thing I kept seeing waves of light both white and black streaming towards me, my best bet is that I just had a huge integration and healing session. 
I’m wondering if all the sugary sweets I ate before had anything to do with that. But I didn’t even know the human body could vibrate like that. Felt like I was going to dematerialise into another dimension LOL! 
Anyway, for some reason I always feel the Kundalini go out the back of my head which is weird. I wonder why that is. My crown is perfectly open and fine, but it never goes out that way… 

I just checked out my aura and it’s a shimmery pale blue now.

So, that was that! I was thinking and I noticed a pattern from my Kundalini surges last year. First the vibration would start, then the surge, but last year I had the entity and it made me scream and vomit as my body was trying to release it. That is the first time I had a surge without any negative side effects (apart from a serious lack of grounding). It’s incredible!
 
Part of me wants to pick up meditation again as I feel the danger has passed, but part of me still worries. I can absorb a LOT of light, maybe that much isn’t good for me. Like Danielle said, I gotta go easy because too much clearing in one go can cause a breakdown, something I’m VERY well aware of. But on the other hand I realised I don’t need meditation to clear my energy system out as Kundalini does that for me instead all the time. My Kundalini kriyas are fine for that. In all honesty I just miss the feeling of meditating! ;~;
 
I’d also love to get in a state to astral project… we’ll see… ! 😉

Solar Plexus Entity

I remember I wrote my last post about kundalini and the full moon, and I said that it felt like I was being leeched energetically and emotionally, but I dismissed it because I didn’t realise how prevalent entities were, assuming them to be rare. I also dismissed it because I thought my vibration was too high to have them. Which I would still say is true to an extent, I probably have less than most people, but it turns out, I still do have them.

I wrote a post about the black disgusting goo in Spiritual Forums asking about it and Monique (Awakened Queen) got back to me saying that it sounded like I have an entity. I was a bit hesitant but thankfully she pushed me a bit to get in touch with her friend Danielle, who is an energy healer. Danielle took a look at my solar plexus clairvoyantly after I explained to her the black goo, and she confirmed that it is an entity. And a large one at that.

She said though, that it doesn’t come from my step-dad. That instead it comes from an intimate relationship I had with someone with control/power issues, and that it entered as a result of the damage done to my aura by my step-dad. There are only two candidates in my mind as to who that could be, either my twin, or the abusive Mexican guy I had a short relationship with when I first went to meet my dad. The latter is the most likely as I remember experiencing a nasty abdominal pain after I cut the relationship off, and I had to be treated antibiotics from the doctor’s.

On the other hand, when I left my twin I had a dream that because I didn’t move on the energy in my stomach couldn’t flow properly and it got stuck and turned into a hard dense black lead ball that couldn’t be released or removed. It’s possible I released the entity during my self-realisation (as I doubt any entity could be around that sort of love/light), but then I reverted back to old habits afterwards and invited it back in unknowingly, as I tried to create an unhealthy power situation between me and my twin.

Either way, it doesn’t matter so much where it comes from. What matters is getting rid of it. I have a session booked with Danielle on the 21st to get it removed. I am SO excited! I have dealt with this problem for the entire last year.. Kundalini has made my life hell for it. All this time it has been trying to transmute this entity too! Which is why it hurt so much. Getting it removed shouldn’t be painful. I was worried about this at first but then last month I removed another entity on my own which was randomly attacking me from nowhere and it didn’t hurt when it left. But the Kundalini trying to transmute that one too did hurt. So I know I should be ok.

That was actually rather weird though, what happened last month. I’d been suffering with migraines for about two months, and the first night it happened I felt something attach to my energy at my crown. I wondered if Jennifer had tapped into my energy for some reason but she told me she wouldn’t do that. Still, I found it weird. I didn’t know that it could be an entity back then, and only removed it when I realised after realising I had one in my solar plexus too.

The weird thing about it though, was that it attached to my crown of all places. I’ve never had any problems with my crown, and I don’t have any blockages there. It’s all been really clear. And the fact it was so strong and came out of nowhere.. I’m not sure how much staying power it had because when I told it to bugger off it did, but it was a pretty nasty thing. Makes me wonder if it was sent by someone on purpose. Seems too heavy to just be a random thing. Weird too that it would happen as soon as I learn about this stuff. The Universe isn’t half giving me some lessons lately.

I never knew how prevalent entities were but now I’ve noticed them it’s like I can see them everywhere. I can understand now why many lightworkers say that the world is overrun with dark forces taking over… don’t they call them the archons or something? Someone sent me a link about that and the false matrix. Except all this is seeing entities from a fear based perspective and not one of truth and love. Entities are part of the natural chain of life. We take energy from other living beings through eating fruit/veg and meat, they take energy from us. It just is what it is. Why do we have this double standard as humans? There is nothing wrong or dark about it. All things are as they should be.

That being said, I am not fond of other people/beings/entities feeding off my energy. Now that I’m aware of them I need to get rid of them. This solar plexus entity is too large for me to get rid of on my own, and I’m worried about making a mess of it and making things worse, so I’m leaving it up to Danielle as she’s an experienced healer and entity remover. Not only that, but I paid basically £100 for the session! Well, actually it’s a total of six sessions, one done each month. The first is to remove the entity. The rest is to mend my aura and raise my vibration in that chakra so the entity or others like it won’t come back. Looking so forward to it! I will try and remember to write down what happens here.

Anyway, as the Universe would have it, I met a new soul connection called Karla, who’s also experienced in healing and removing entities from herself and the people closest to her. She says she’s going to send me a manual so I can continue to remove the rest I have and also so I can learn to mend my own aura. Though I’m sure many will disappear after the session as I think they’re likely attached to this huge one in my center. Kundalini does actually remove most entities on its own.. I guess if they are small enough they can be transmuted just fine. Kundalini also heals the aura.. so I don’t think there’s much I need to do, but it’s great to have the manual for if any others ever attack me again like the migraine one (though I seemed to deal with that alright anyway). Or if I have a larger one in my aura somewhere I haven’t noticed before.

One thing I am really hyped about is the fact I may be able to resume meditating again. I will take it slowly though, real slowly. Because meditating for me in the past has been like playing with fire. Without the solar plexus entity I may have no more screaming sessions or puking spells.. but it’s good to be safe than sorry. I will have to start ten minutes a day. If negative side effects happen then they happen. That is just part of learning and experimenting. But if they don’t.. I may be able to experience Samadhi’s again!!! I love this. Best part about realising what was wrong with my solar plexus after all this time and then getting it fixed. I’ll be able to experience myself as All-That-Is again.. and how awesome is that, really??? Well, you can only know if you’ve experienced it.

Super excited!