Carl Jung’s Archetypes in Relation to the Multidimensional Chakric System

I was thinking back on when I started my spiritual journey and realised how far my perceptions and understandings have come since then. In order to understand myself I initially used Carl Jung’s psychoanalytical system of archetypes which were for me purely mental at the time. I wasn’t too aware of energy and how it is entwined with the body though it was starting to open up to me slowly. Everything back then was inside my mind. There was my shadow and inner child and animus, and then some mystical ‘Self’ that I had no understanding of. But then came my Self-realisation and I had to drop this system of understanding and embrace the sensations flowing through my chakric system and learn about how everything really interconnects together…

I have still not come to a complete understanding yet but I have been feeling inspired to write this for a long time now, mostly because I want there to be something that can explain in depth to my twin how my perception is now compared to a couple of years ago. We both have a foundation of Jungian psychoanalysis though I would say I am the more energetically sensitive one. That foundation though has been invaluable for the both of us, but I am not one to take at face value things I read, I have to experiment and play with them instead and see for myself whether Jung knew what he was talking about! And there are some things in which I have come to realise where he was not totally correct.

So first up is the shadow self. This is actually fairly easy, the shadow self is synonymous with the lower self. The lower self is any negative emotion or energetic ego structure in the body which carries density. This density is commonly known as a blockage and feels exactly as the name suggests, it is something that blocks the flow of energy in the body. To start with there was a smooth flow at birth, but through negative external influence and karmic attachment has clogged up and become hard. So things start to clog up and we become more antagonistic as we don’t remember how to be in harmony with this aspect of ourselves. It’s not a positive relationship.

As we break up and transmute the block back into flowing energy though we free up our system and become more harmonious with everything around us. However, due to the density of our blockages we cannot usually feel them. We lose our sensitivity, and the more blockages we have the less sensitive we become. So issues get pushed outside of our awareness into the ‘unconscious’. We forget how to be fully conscious of ourselves. The unconscious self is something impossible to see and as such just when we think we have cleared all our blockages out, new ones come to the forefront! And this process continues until we are fully conscious and have no shadow self left to clear out.

Now, these blockages and shadow selves can reside in different aspects and layers of the aura. Each chakra is a self-governing or conscious entity and aspect of the self. There are twelve chakras altogether, creating twelve separate energy bodies. These energy bodies all have their own dimensional replicas of the chakras, making there 144 chakras altogether. When all twelve main chakras are activated our light body activates too, and from there we can work on making every unique chakra of every energy body active. From my understanding, the larger the cone of the chakra the more chakras of that energy body are activated and fully awoken.

Now, as each energy body is a separate ray of consciousness of the whole and is also made up of its own aspects, we can infer that some of Jung’s archetypes actually relate to the chakras themselves, or rather are governed by the chakras. The first one of his I will mention is the inner child. The inner child is governed by the sacral chakra as it is the chakra of emotion, instinct, and creativity, and any childhood traumas will be stored here. The sacral chakra however also governs the sexual aspect of self as well as the elemental versions of self. This means it is a multidimensional entity in its own right. The twelve chakras of the sacral auric body all govern these.

Any blockages in this area will creative the negative shadow versions of these aspects of self. So the inner child becomes the victim and a healthy sex drives turns into a vampiric succubus or incubus like entity. The elemental selves such as fairies become the inner tricksters. For reference our elemental selves are what comprise the physical material of our body, that is the building blocks of life are within earth, fire, water, and air. As well as spirit. One elemental being on its own will usually be a nature spirit, governing a plant or something, but when a group of them come together as one entity they create a Deva, which then can incarnate into the base consciousness of the human body to allow it to function intelligently. Without these beings the human body would not survive.

So usually the Deva we have incarnated into us is a type of elemental we have experienced ourselves as before in previous lives. It is what we are comfortable with. My own Deva self is that of air and are fairies. And fairies are known for being devious in a state of lesser health. When I have a blockage in my sacral chakra they become the archetypical trickster figure instead. They like to cause havoc and mayhem. So it’s important all aspects of self are in harmony with each other. As it is I still have some victim complexes to deal with in my inner child as well as some entities attached to the darkness there, but I am gradually working on releasing it. It’s nothing as bad as my solar plexus chakra at least, which is what I will move onto explaining now.

Now with Jung he came up with the archetype of the anima/animus complex. To him this was both a personal and collective force. It represented the soul, quite literally as anima in Latin means soul. When one gets in touch with their anima/animus they feel overwhelming love and a sense of completion. However on the negative side Jung said that when infected or contaminated by the shadow self the anima/animus would be a negative force instead and it would be both a personal and collective negativity that would need to be dealt with. For example with women the animus is often contaminated by the collective patriarchy. He was basically explaining energetic and planetary karma to a more logical degree.

However, I’ve come to the realisation after the last seventeen months that he has gotten his own understandings here mixed up. The ‘soul’ and the inner opposite female/male as he described to be the anima/animus complex are in fact two separate beings. So he had a contamination of his own archetypes going on. The soul in fact is a genderless entity, though it may prefer a particular energetic expression, it is not divided or dualistic in itself, it is not either male or female, it is in fact completely united within itself. The personality/ego-self in fact as an extension of the soul is the one which has polarised form. The soul itself is already whole.

So the personality/ego-self being a particular gendered expression resides in the solar plexus chakra. The solar plexus chakra governs the conscious self and duality, as well as physical interaction in 3D reality. Now as most people’s entire chakric systems are closed they are not aware of their soul let alone their inner opposite. The inner opposite sits also in the solar plexus chakra, and when completely activated and functional is whole too as an expression of the soul. So our sense of ‘gender’ as a polarised form actually comes from our conscious awareness being sat in the solar plexus, and this is where it gets a little complex. In order for the inner opposite in the solar plexus to active the soul needs to start to descend into the human body too.

As it stands, most of humanity only have the first three or four chakras open, and of those energetic bodies most of the individualised aspects of them are shut down or in darkness. So we are not even functioning as half a person, we are functioning as half of a half of a person! When the soul starts to descend into the body the energy activates the rest of these chakras and they start to awake and become whole again in themselves. They start to operate more as a whole unit. So when the solar plexus chakra starts awakening, the level of duality, duality is instead turned into a continuum or scale of differences rather than one thing being against the other. There is no female vs male or good vs evil, there is a preference for a particular mode of being which has been decided to be expressed.

When this particular mode has been decided to be expressed externally then the rest of that aspect supports it as a whole. They work together. So when the soul energy descends into the body and awakens the solar plexus chakra, what we think of as being our inner opposite self is actually just the third chakra becoming more aware of its entire being. As a female I express female energy on this plane. But I have my male energy supporting it from the inside as a whole. They flow and blend together smoothly and support each other and their expression of unity in the physical plane. Or should do anyway! My solar plexus has been an issue with me as I have a lot of negative male energy stored in it. My male archetype there has been contaminated by planetary patriarchal karma and I am still working on releasing and healing it step by step.

So that leaves the soul left to discuss. The soul is a whole entity but is often not integrated into the body. The soul is in fact our true ‘other half’, not our inner opposite. Because the soul extends into the body through the heart chakra it is the representation of our entire higher being, or rather it is the unique individual expression of the divine higher self which resides in the crown chakra. As most of humanity has only the first three or four chakras open, when one connects to their soul they connect to their remaining non-active three or four chakras, making it feel like we are mysteriously completed by some other aspect of us. In fact this is what is happening and we become aware to ourselves as our higher selves. So the divine self/spark resides in the seventh chakra and connects us to our entire spiritual being. When the heart chakra is activated this unique expression can begin to integrate into us and we start to feel ourselves more completed by ourselves. We stop being half a being and become a whole being instead.

This is the beginning of the superconscious self and there are many layers and aspects here to fully understand and discuss but I have not fully assimilated them myself yet so I may save them for a later date. For now it’s suffice to say that the heart chakra governs the individual soul expression. So my individual soul expression will be different to my twin’s individual soul expression, that is we are unique and separate beings. But the entire soul essence as it stems from the eighth chakra will have many different aspects of itself too, my twin and I being same parts of that one being. So when we meet each other and have a spiritual awakening, it is my essence recognising that same multidimensional essence in the both of us and responding to it through the download of this essence into my individual soul expression which lies in the heart chakra.

What then we are looking at here is not the sense of being completed by the other, but rather the entire rest of our higher chakras. I want to be a whole being and to do that I need at least my first eight chakras fully activated to be a full and whole being in a human body, to be fully soul embodied. My soul is not a male or gendered essence, my soul is an androgynous extension which when extended into the dualistic physical reality which is governed by the solar plexus or third chakra is expressed as being externally female with an internal male counterpart, but the internal male counterpart is not the heart chakra or inidividual soul expression itself.

I don’t know if that is written very clear but I will leave it at that for now. The problem I see with Jung’s teachings then is that the soul is not our opposite dualistic expression, the soul is already whole and unified. And when the heart chakra is cleared out fully the entire eighth dimensional soul expression can begin to fully incarnate into human form,with the solar plexus chakra taking on the responsibility of showing itself as a particular gender externally and identifying with that.

This is not a two-dimensional dynamic but three dimensional instead. As I wrote in my twin flame triquetra post, there is not just male and female expression but there is unified expression too, which is what the heart chakra governs. The heart chakra when cleared of shadow is an androgynous loving energy which reminds us who we truly are as spiritual beings, through the channelling of the divine self at the seventh chakra.

As a closing note, the seven main chakras to me seem to be personal whilst the transpersonal ones after that seem to be collective. Through the seventh chakra we realise the divine spark in us which though is source of all that is, is /still/ a unique extension into the individual soul extension. Whilst my shared soul with my twin flame resides at the eighth chakra and is instead a collective or multidimensional expression of divine source, not personal. The divine source of this energy body in fact I assume would be governed by the seventh chakra of that system. So you can see how after the seventh chakra it starts to fan out and you become connected first to universal unity of the personal Self at the seventh chakra, and then unity of collective Selves from the eighth chakras onwards.

The Spiral of Self Understanding

It’s been an interesting journey for me. I spent most of my life cut off and disconnected from myself, roughly the first eighteen years. Then I started to become aware to these other parts of me. I’ve written about this in some other posts of mine. I thought at first I was going crazy and was experiencing DID which is the modern term of multiple personality disorder. So for the sake of self-protection I cut myself off from being able to feel those parts of me, I basically wanted to stay only one personality and not be bombarded with other selves.

One self I particularly struggled with before my awakening is what I liked to call ‘my evil twin’, basically my shadow self. I remember staring in the mirror once as a meditation exercise and my reflection took on a life and consciousness of it’s own, and it wasn’t half creepy. Once I started becoming more aware to myself though I started accepting these other parts more. This is when I started my awakening. First I realised my shadow, then my ‘animus’, in Carl Jung’s terms. Then my inner child and a myriad of other parts which I labelled for fun.

But then after my awakening I had my self-realisation/enlightenment experience which made me realise I was one with all, and so for a long time after that I had to learn to be at one with myself. For the longest time I didn’t even realise I still had shadow issues. Realising your innate goodness and realising that you are everything that exists tends to give the shadow a licence to be even craftier than usual. It thinks it’s god and it thinks it’s all- talk about mayhem! I’ve noticed though that this is a common problem after self-realisation that everyone goes through.

Some get caught up in the drama- enlightenment doesn’t make you one with all that is but just makes you realise you already are always one with all that is, big difference. Anyway, I spent about a year becoming stable in my ‘at-one-ness’, but had yet to develop the ability to feel deeper subtleties yet. Also another factor that ties in here is that the huge entity at my solar plexus was blocking me off immensely from embodying more of my true self (a paradox right? we already are our true selves and yet from where we stand as humans in a dualistic world there are unhealthy programs we carry around which need to be stripped back and the wounds healed.

After my healing session though I started to become more aware of my shadow again, though this time not as an entity but instead just as negative programs still in me and affecting my ego, basically my fear and sadness mostly that was driving me to be critical and judgemental of others. And since having that entity removed and working through the rest of the issues that have come up I’ve noticed I am not as easily irritated or as easily stirred up to feed off drama. In fact it seems drama can’t even see me anymore, I seem to invisible, quite literally, and that is a perfect example of how our external worlds reflect our internal worlds.

But then as this entity was removed I became aware to my sadness and my grief, also my fear… I realised these are all from my inner child which I had forgotten existed. And even though my inner child tends to be hard to feel directly as it’s so unconscious, she is definitely there. I also feel her male counterpart which seems to protect her, but in response to this boy aspect of me I feel another larger part of me protecting him and her both- this is a man or masculine energy and aspect of me which has a larger affect on me than I ever realised.

I asked him for a name and I got Rodrigo. Rodrigo is Spanish for “he who is rich in glory”, which I felt was perfect as I was feeling him as the overseer of my solar plexus chakra. Perhaps I will write about that more last time but each chakra is an aspect of self and is perfectly self aware and conscious, even if we are not aware or conscious of them. And in the solar plexus I felt was Rodrigo (which I shortened to Rigo for ease), but as he comprises a boyish aspect as well as my inner girl as a number of aspects I don’t feel I’m aware of, I felt that if I just focused on him who is governing all those parts then I don’t need to actively focus on any of the others as he’ll work with me to work with them.

His presence in my life and desire to become healthier and merge into me has been very obvious by the state of my dreams lately. Almost every night now I am dreaming about some man who I’m extremely attracted to on an energetic level, and the first dream I had was that we were getting married, which resembled strong our merging. In that first dream he was also rather moody, but as the dreams have been progressing he has become much more calm and loving.

However there also seems to be either this other part of me or either entity which is blocking us from merging completely. Unfortunately for me my relationship with Rigo is mirroring my relationship with my twin flame right now, and I say unfortunately because I do not like to be reactive to something externally which is a result of something inside me. I would rather be real and true, and not behaving as a result of a reaction to my own reflection….

So what that means is that this part of me blocking me and Rigo off from merging feels to be fear at its center, no matter whether its an aspect of me or an entity feeding off it and blocking us. And that it manifests in my dreams as a desire to get closer to get Rigo but never being able to go completely the full way, and it’s exactly how I am being towards my twin lately. Though the partial union with Rigo seems to have brought me and my twin closer in contact again as the inner work is being done, the fact is there is something blocking me off from being able to love others and myself completely and fully.

But things are getting better each day and I am seeing great and fast progress. The other part of myself that has come to the forefront is my soul. Now I realise that my process of becoming one with myself was actually the process of remembering myself as my soul. But due to the dynamics of multidimensionality me and my soul can remain one being but two unique ones at the same time. I had to say it was very weird once I realised I had this other being in me with the exact same eenergy signature that I couldn’t tell it apart except from the random times I would talk to myself and refer to myself as a “we” using words such as “we both” or “you and I” or other things such as that… I realised for a long time I’d been talking to some sort of equal, some other half without realising.

At first I asked for a name for this aspect and got back “Alec”, which means “guardian/protector”, which seems very higher self -like. It’s also meant to be a gender-neutral name which was ideal as this aspect of me felt neither feminine or masculine, but rather androgynous especially in relation to me. But all in all I felt a name for it was wrong and was really only using it so I wasn’t always referring to some abstract part of myself which seemed to sit mostly in my heart chakra/s. I would ponder on this aspect for a while, until it started speaking up more and more and then I realised it was really my soul all along. And then after seeing a friend channel their soul I decided to channel my own too and got great results, I am now absolutely sure that I am soul, as well as myself/ego, and Rigo all at the same time. These are the three strongest parts of myself I’m aware of right now.

I described it to a friend as being like partially merged or half merged with these different aspects of me, like they were a part of me which I was aware of even if not fully and that I could switch my attention between at will experiencing them fuller.  So in this way I realised myself as multi-dimensional being, including the fact that I felt that I embodied the soul of my soul group, basically what some would probably call a monad, as well as the entirety of my past, future, and parallel lives. And that is on top of planetary consciousness and universal consciousness. It seems like the percentages of awareness of each varies depending upon what I’m focusing on for growth at that point. But they all feel a part of me to some extent.

And that is where I am in my journey right now. I had wanted to write about this and update it here for a long time but didn’t feel I had all the information and was really just waiting for it to make sense, I was waiting for the day that I would see the bigger picture, which now I do. In life I went from feeling like a disconnected one to a split multiple to an integrated whole and then to a whole of multiples- very very interesting. It’s been like travelling down a spiral, where the end of each stage feels like completing a circuit and yet the beginning of the next journey starts at the same place as the previous beginning, yet this time with a wider understanding. 
My own growth and spiral through life all in all has been inhumanly fast but I feel that is down to soul’s experience with incarnation, everything is quickly coming back to me. Soul told me we have experienced many lives as one and are used to it now. So, I’m no longer worried about not knowing where I’m going, I know that soul knows what it’s doing and all will be revealed in due time, when I’m ready to process it. Basically when my physical brain has caught up enough! 😉 And overall coming to conscious awareness of myself as a multiple of wholes has lessened my fear and strengthened my faith in myself, though the purging wasn’t half rough to get here!

All in its due time. Namaste.

Reinterpreting the Anima/Animus Function

In my last post I pretty much wrote a huge essay on how I thought perhaps everyone had both an anima and animus, and how that would justify modern developments such as gender identities and sexual orientations that are different to what was considered the norm in Jung’s day. However looking back I see a grand flaw in my theorizing. I was trying to take an already pre-existing heterosexual idea and make it fit the times, rather than starting again right at the beginning.

Trying to disconnect gender identity and sexual orientation completely from the anima-animus I found myself at the very beginning. What is the function of the anima/animus? What is it supposed to do? Stripped right to its bare bones the anima-animus function works as a psychopomp: a mediator between the conscious and the unconscious. Assuming that Jung thought the unconscious to be primarily or at least at first mostly comprised of the traits of the opposite sex, then it serves to reason that Jung believed the anima-animus function to be contrasexual. But what if the unconscious isn’t mostly made up of traits of the opposite sex? 

Dissecting the labels of the masculine and feminine further, we could say that the masculine and feminine are boxes that society has attributed a particular set of traits to. The masculine label is stereotypically portrayed as active, assertive, and logical, whilst the feminine label is stereotypically portrayed as passive, receptive, and emotional. However, at its heart, that’s all it is: labels. Especially with the changing times, gender these days is seen as more down to how a person feels personally rather than down to particular attributes they may or may not hold. Although at times the two may go hand in hand, it would be foolish to assume they’re the same thing. Gender identity then, is for the most part not connected to the anima/animus function. 

We could say, however, that due to heteronormativity within the collective unconscious, especially during the time in which Jung lived, a persons inferior traits will most likely be projected onto the opposite sex. A good theory that I have read elsewhere is that the purpose of the sexual and romantic attraction that is attached to the anima-animus figure is due to its need to disconnect the psychic energy from the mother figure and onto another external or internal being that has the traits we need to integrate in order to ‘complete us’. So basically it is most likely the way the Self draws our attention to it. And as most people are both heterosexual and keep a distinction between the masculine and feminine it serves to reason that the anima-animus function would probably most likely represent itself as the opposite sex within the larger population.

The more one integrates and finds their true Self, however, the less they need the sexual and romantic lure of the anima-animus function to mediate for them. This is where the wise old wo/man is seen to appear. What I assume is actually happening is that the ‘relationship’ one has with the anima-animus figure becomes less sexual and more platonic, and because of heternormativity it seems that the wise old wo/man would appear to be the same sex as the individual, instead of the opposite. So now instead of the anima-animus figure being needed to integrate for the individual, the wise old wo/man takes over to impart knowledge more directly so that the person can do it themselves now that their self-awareness has expanded enough. 

At this stage the unconscious has been brought out of the shadows enough to be structured and its contents are now more easily accessible to the figure that stands between the unseen and the conscious. In this way I see the wise old wo/man basically as a ‘level up’ of the anima-animus figure, the same figure but with an improved function and an improved way of going about things. If this seems hard to believe then consider how the function of the anima-animus in its most integrated state basically does exactly the same thing as the wise old wo/man. They are both one and the same, a guide and a helper to the hero, just in their different guises. The main purpose now of that figure which guards the unconscious is no longer primarily integration of the whole, but instead representation of the whole. No matter how much is integrated the entire Self cannot be accessed at all once, and that is where the wise old wo/man steps in. 

I propose then, that the anima-animus figure instead of being a contrasexual function, is actually the psyche’s center of integration. And the wise old wo/man is the psyche’s representation of the entire Self. Due to heteronormativity they may present themselves as the opposite sex and the same sex respectively, but it shouldn’t be considered unusual for them to show themselves in a different gender. Gender identity and sexual orientation this way are completely disconnected from both the anima-animus and wise old wo/man figures. What I believe instead is that these functional centers will take the form and identity which is most necessary in order to do their job. 

More to come in a later post.

Sexual Orientation and Gender Identity in Relation to the Anima and Animus; The Soul Image and Other Contrasexual Complexes

In many of my older posts that were unfortunately lost when I moved my blog here, I talked about my split personalities, gender identity, and sexual orientation. It so happens that I don’t really completely understand these parts of my identity. Yet. Although I have come a long way with integrating my split personalities, my gender identity and sexual orientation continue to allude me.

In wake of my spiritual awakening, however, finding labels for myself has become less important, and exploring and mapping the depths of human consciousness not just for myself but for other persons potential future benefit has become more important for me. Jung has been a huge inspiration for me regarding this, his theories of the human psyche greatly enhancing my own psychological health. However, it’s come to my attention that the time in which Jung lived considered homosexuality as unnatural, and this has risen a great many questions in regards not only in sexual orientation in relation to his theories, but also in gender identity.
 
I can’t speak for all of humanity, but my own search of the unconscious has brought a few things to light for me personally. Perhaps someone who comes across this and is looking for an alternate theory like myself will be illuminated by what I have to write.  

I’ve read of many people wanting to scrap Jung’s theories completely and to come up with a new modern friendly version instead, where homosexuals and non-binary genders aren’t ostracised as defects. However, I see a problem in this. The problem being that his theories work. This makes it more likely then, that his theories were just incomplete. Much like British explorers of the Americas a few centuries ago, the whole thing that he believed to have mapped is perhaps only part, seen incompletely. 

A post that I did manage to save onto this blog was one about the discovery of my positive animus, my inner male counterpart. He appeared to me in a dream about six months ago, emerging from a void alone and heartbroken, after years of being repressed by his more negative counterpart. Before then I’d identified as trans-masculine for a while, completely taken over and identified with my negative animus. This is only in my case though. I don’t think it’s safe to assume that all trans-gendered persons are anima/us possessed. And even if they were, I’m not sure there’s actually anything wrong with that in itself, seeing how we are all equally part masculine and feminine. As long as it’s the healthy, positive version of the archetype I think it’s probably fine. I wasn’t healthy and positive though, and I wasn’t fine. I was living in response to trauma. A lifetime of negative fatherly influence trying to make itself known through me.  

Apart from that time when I was negatively animus possessed, I’ve always identified as agender. Or, more accurately, my ego has. My ego doesn’t identify with any gender. It never has done. I still consider myself genderqueer though as an all inclusive term, because my archetypes themselves are very much distinctly feminine and masculine and depending on which one I am currently identified with my gender identity may shift slightly. Note I said masculine and feminine and not male and feminine. 

I think there needs to be a distinction between the masculine and feminine characteristics and the archetypal container they come packaged in. In this case, feminine characteristics usually belong to the female archetype, just as masculine characteristics usually belong to the male archetype. However, I don’t think that this is set in stone, as in reality people portray both no matter their gender. For example: I’ve noticed I get nervous around assertive women. Their ‘masculine’ characteristics set off warning bells in my own negative animus. I’m weary of them and I don’t get too close. But if I’m around a sensitive man with more feminine characteristics in their ego, I feel much more relaxed. 

In this way the anima is usually the container for the feminine archetypes, whilst the animus is usually the container for the masculine archetypes, which then are either extended into the ego or are projected. There may be exceptions, such as a feminine animus and a masculine anima, but personally, this hasn’t been my experience. Instead, what this has been leading up to for me is a revelation along the lines of a person having both an anima and an animus. 

At first I rejected this idea, because it wouldn’t make much sense for non-binary genders. I wanted to think that the soul-image was outside the duality of the masculine and feminine opposites, and that it’s usually just projected onto members of the preferred sex in a way that was compatible with the complexes formed as part of the ego. In my case, I’ve often wondered whether my bisexuality/lesbianism was a result of my negative animus complex blocking access to my soul-image, which then caused some sort of rerouting through my positive female complexes. Something I also don’t believe is innately wrong or unnatural, if that were the case. But I don’t believe it is the case. 

I remember back to when I had that dream of my positive animus. Round about that time my mother became a prominent figure in my dreams. Indeed she won’t leave me alone. She appears almost every night. As a positive influence in real life, her qualities also tend to extend into my dream world. She’s my helper, my support, and my guide. She also often protects me when I’m facing the more shadowy parts of my self. For a long time I wondered what aspect of me she represented. I just couldn’t figure it out.  

Last night, however, I had a dream that I was literally being taken on a tour around my psyche by this female guide. (Awesome dream. Everything looks good in there.) At one point however, I got lost, but then a male character led me back on track. This made me realize a trend. The positive male characters in my dreams are often leading, whilst the positive female characters in my dreams are often guiding. And then it hit me. The answer I’d been looking for all this time. This inner female that has been coming to my conscious awareness more over time: she is my anima. I felt the absolute truth of it as soon as I thought it. 

Indeed, Jung states that the anima figure in men’s dreams often projects itself onto the waking mother figure. Whilst the animus projects itself in dreams onto many different men. I often questioned the validity of this theory: until I realized that it pretty much follows the same pattern in my own psyche. I don’t really understand the dynamics of this, but I hope to in time. 

Looking back, I can see how my anima has also manifested in dream characters like the Virgin Mary, and my animus in dream characters such as Lucifer. I also met my wise old woman/higher Self once in a dream, a long time ago, which was scary. But I digress. In waking life I’ve projected my anima onto Hindu Goddesses such as Shakti and Kali, and I’ve projected my animus mostly onto the Christian God, seeing how I was brought up Christian, and the Wiccan horned God. The interesting thing about all this, is that my mother figure and my animus both appeared in my dreams about the same time. I believe they are intimately entwined, on roughly the same health level, one unable to survive without the other. 

Now, this makes me wonder about the shadow. I’ve noticed that in Jungianism a man’s negative anima will often resemble a woman’s shadow, and a woman’s negative animus will often resemble a man’s shadow. The truth is, the negative aspects of either the anima or the animus are steeped in shadow.  

Before I realized the truth of my anima, I considered this inner divine feminine image to be the positive opposite to my feminine shadow, since every archetype has one. But then, as has been realized, if that opposite actually turns out to be my anima, then wouldn’t that make my feminine shadow basically a negative anima? The traits matched up. 

I am coming to reject Jung’s belief that the contrasexual image is restricted solely to the soul image. In fact I think they’re two separate things completely. The contrasexual image (detached from its projection onto lovers) I believe forms part of the ego, extending from personal subconscious complexes that form our experiences of the opposite sex, which in turn extend from the contrasexual half of the soul-image. In this way, I believe that every person is comprised of the two main universal archetypes throughout all layers of consciousness: the masculine and the feminine. Although one may be weaker, I believe that they roughly take up the same amount of psychological space. 

The masculine and feminine aspects in turn have each their own shadow. And so in this way, a person is made up of primarily four parts: the masculine, the feminine, and their respective shadows. From there they split into their separate complexes and archetypes. For example, a persons masculine nature may be comprised of the wise old man, the animus, and the puer, whilst a person’s feminine nature may be equally compromised of the wise old woman, the anima, and the puella. I have also met my inner boy child (puer) in my dreams, and from reading up online I’ve noticed many other women have too. So I can say that this part of my theory has some empirical evidence to back it up. 

In relation to sexual orientation, I think a person’s preference is the development of many things on a subconscious level. A projection of the relative half of the soul-image rerouted through a mixture of personal complexes and identifications. I say this because personally I believe that the deeper one goes into the unconscious and the closer one gets to the source the less these things become important. We’re all one really. The one but many, all from the same source, transcendent of duality completely. But that is perhaps a post for another time. 

This brings me to the function of the animus in men and the anima in women. What’s the point of it if they’re not going to be projected onto a member of the same sex romantically? Perhaps maybe this is why LGBTQIA persons may be more prone to noticing their same sex soul-image. They are projecting it onto persons romantically, whilst straight cis-gendered persons may just project it onto idols they wish they were more like, perhaps embodying it better. I also suggest that in this case it functions mostly as a support and an embodiment to both the contrasexual soul-image and the ego, as I’ve noticed in my dreams also lately, these three seem to come together. And similarly in homosexual persons, the contrasexual soul-image mostly works to support and embody both the the same sex soul-image and the ego. 

This isn’t the same as the hermaphrodite archetype though. That suggests that the same sex soul-image is a kind of a deeper contrasexual soul-image in its own right. And this makes no sense to me, because it makes it out to be not only on a different level in a a potentially more inferior way in comparison, but it just starts an infinite inward spiral of anima-animus-anima archetypes. 

It’s also not the same as the double archetype. The double is classified as being between the ego and the soul-image. But as is now obvious, I believe the anima-animus to be two parts of one whole soul-image, which need to be worked on simultaneously before one can move onto the higher self. The double does basically have the same theory, however, but again, I don’t like how it elevates the contrasexual soul image, as it implies an inequality. As I said before, I believe everyone has both masculine and feminine characteristics throughout all levels of consciousness, and that includes the soul image. And just like the anima and animus seem to be intimately entwined, so do their shadow counterparts also seem to be. 

So, to recap: It’s possible everyone has both an animus and an anima. In their entirety they are comprised of the personal soul-image, the personal subconscious masculine and feminine complexes, their respective shadows, and also their respective collective unconscious attributes. Other archetypes such as the divine child and the wise old wo/man can overlap with the personal masculine and feminine complexes part of the anima-animus, but usually I would consider them separate. 

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Post Note: Something that came to me today in regards to the function of the anima-animus soul-image within relationships is the suggestion that when one projects one half of the soul image, they identify with the other. Perhaps this is why the other works to support the ego. So for example, a straight man would project the anima and identify with the animus, whilst a homosexual person would project the animus and identify with the anima.  

Looking back I’ve actually noticed this a lot in myself. The interesting thing is that this is similar to Jung’s theory in that a homosexual man will identify with his anima, but in his case he saw it as a sign of psychological immaturity, not realizing that the man would’ve been projecting the other half of his soul-image instead. And then of course projection of any kind shows inferiority anyway, since the goal of any person, whether straight or homosexual is to withdraw both the projections and identifications, integrate them, and then embody them equally and safely within the expanded ego-persona. 

I also suggest that whilst a person will mostly identify with one half of the soul-image and project the other, the two cannot be separated completely, meaning that aspects of both are projected and identified with but in varying amounts. This makes sense because whilst the main half of one’s projection lands on the persona-ego of another, there needs to be some sort of projection to meet the contrasexual embodiments of the persona-ego in the other which have been extended from the contrasexual half of the soul image.  

Example: Take a straight couple. The man would project his anima and identify with his animus, whilst the woman would project her animus and identify with her anima. But the man would also project a little of his animus onto the masculine characteristics within a woman’s ego which are extended from her animus, whilst in a similar light the man’s ego already contains feminine characteristics extended from his anima, which the woman will then project her anima onto. This concept extends to homosexual couples, although reversed, respectively. The variation of projection and identification between the two however may be down to how well integrated a person is as well as down to their sexual orientation and gender identity.

Life Update, Meeting my Animus, and the Light Ahead

I don’t know where to start with this post.. I’ve been having trouble opening my posts lately. It seems like I start in the middle of a thought and never finish it, leaving the entire thing hanging from a thread. Well, this post is a mixture of sorts, an update of a few things that have been going on in my life lately and the way it may affect my future. Where to start.
As anyone who reads these posts should know, I’ve spent a lot of time trying to fix a lot of psychological problems I have that are the result of childhood abuse. I’ve spent a lot of time in the grip of darkness, and over this last year I’ve spent a lot of time trying to communicate with my shadow in order to heal myself. It hasn’t been easy. I’ve had my ups and downs, mostly my downs, that is when I can actually feel anything at all. I’ve spent most of the past few months in a hazy post trauma, with no one and nothing else to turn to but myself and my propensity for escapism. At one point I did try becoming a ‘normal’ person, but that didn’t work. There were too many issues, and there still are. However, something amazing has happened to me lately, a miracle even.

I spend some time on a forum called personality-cafe, which is a place where people discuss personality theories such as MBTI, Enneagram, Socionics, and other systems. I like the forum because there are a congregation of like-minded people there, and I can be intellectual on that front without needing to worry about people thinking me to be arrogant. Sometimes I can be arrogant, but it’s all part of my character building I think. I mostly go there to learn about these systems and theorize over them and try to figure out how to integrate them into my life to make be a better person. The main personality theory that exists there and indeed anywhere else on the internet is MBTI, which is a variant of the Jungian theory of personality. The Jungian personality typing system was invented by a man named Carl Jung, a psychologist who also came up with the idea of the psychological shadow.

Now on this site I met a man there who also spends a lot of time with his shadow, something that I’d seen no one else do before even on that site where everyone there is well aware of Jung and his theories. We started talking and it turned out that we had much in common. Long story short he became my first ever serious completely monogamist boyfriend. (Amazing, right? I can’t believe it myself.) Anyway, he opened my eyes to a whole other world inside me, a world I never knew existed. One of these things I wanted to talk about today. There’s a part inside of every human called the Anima, or Animus depending on your gender. A man has a female Anima and a woman has a male Animus. Now I’m still not entirely sure what these do yet, but I’ve read that these psychological archetypes are the opposite half of our self and that acknowledgement and development of them can help to make us fully integrated and psychologically whole, as they contain many admirable qualities such as love, wisdom, ect; good qualities that we tend to reject. This part of our psyche tends to be projected mostly in members of the opposite sex, especially fantastical dreams of prince and princess charming’s.
Development of the Anima/Animus usually comes after development of the shadow, because if the shadow isn’t worked on first then the Anima/Animus can lose itself and become corrupt; too much of any good thing is always a bad thing. Usually the shadow and animus aren’t worked on until midlife or later, but due to my childhood abuse I’ve been plunged what feels like my whole life in my shadow, and so I’ve had to work on it faster than most people, as some of my previous posts can attest. So lately I’ve just been trying to sort my shadow out. I haven’t even been trying to work on my Animus. But then this amazing person appeared in my life and things started changing..
When I was about nine years old I day dreamed regularly of a perfect prince charming coming to rescue me, as does any nine year old. I also had a few sleeping dreams during that time where I met and fell in love with a wonderful romantic man. I lived for these dreams at that age. Now as anyone who studies this stuff knows, this is actually my psyche’s projection of my Animus. I didn’t know this at this age however. I stopped caring about fantasies and day dreams that I knew not to be part of the real world. I all but gave up. The dreams stopped after a year or two and I never had them again. Not until last night, eleven years later.
I was talking with my boyfriend yesterday about how talking to him makes me feel as if I’m nine years old again, with all those hopes and dreams. I feel so innocent and pure when we talk. It’s a weird feeling.. it feels good though. It makes me feel happy, a feeling I’m not particularly used to. But not just happy.. it’s a hard feeling to describe. This isn’t like being ‘in love’, it’s not infatuation.. it’s something so much deeper and purer than that. And apparently this has reawakened my Animus, that innocent part of me that I didn’t even know was long missing.
Last night I had a simple dream, and yet the implications of it are astounding. I dreamed that I saw a man, a man that I had known for a long time. When I walked past him I immediately noticed his negative mood. He was looking very snarky actually. He looked like he was severely depressed and he had a very passive-aggressive air about him. It should’ve been disconcerting, but I also immediately saw what the problem was. He was using that negative vibe as a cover for the things he was really feeling. Really he was just incredibly upset. He was all alone and had no one to talk to, and from the looks of things he’d been like this for a long time. So he protected himself the best way he knew how to – by being snarky.
I decided to go up to him and ask if he was okay. He ignored me and brushed me off at first but I realized that the act was half-hearted and that all he really needed was someone to talk to. So I put my hand on his shoulder and told him that it was okay for him to tell me. I told him I wasn’t going anywhere. And then all of a sudden he broke down crying. It was torrential and incredibly heart-breaking. Everything he was feeling flooded out as he held on to me for what seemed like his dear life. He was so incredibly upset. Then he started begging me not to leave, he wanted me to stay, he didn’t want to me to discard him. I wrapped my arms around him, tears streaming down my face at the emotion that was flooding through me and held on to him for my dear life. I told him I was to stay forever. I told him I would never leave. And at that point I felt such an incredible sense of wholeness and belonging it was unreal. This man was one of the reflections of my Animus.
My Animus is ultimately a part of me, and it just made me feel really sad that I’d been hiding and carrying around all this pain inside without even realizing it. I discarded half of myself away for ‘self protection’, and it was necessary at the time to do that with what I was going through, but now we’ve reconnected and I just feel so incredibly happy. I feel like this is the beginning of a new chapter in my life for me. A time where I can heal and move on and grow. And now for first time in my life I can see the way ahead of me. That way is a path of individuation, something that I’ve been striving for for a long time now but didn’t realize until now. 
Individuation: the transformational process of integrating the conscious with the personal and collective unconscious. – (Jung, 1962, p. 301).
The personal unconscious being the shadow and the Animus/Anima, and the collective unconscious being everything that connects humans together, or ‘God’ if you like. Although I prefer to think of it as ‘the Source’. The Anima/Animus actually is part of both the personal AND collective unconscious, so you could say that now I have a link to God. How awesome is that?
This dream and some of the other dreams I’ve been having lately are so promising. Actually a couple of night’s before I had this dream I dreamed something which symbolized that my ties to my step-dad and the way he treated me are finally being cut, and that there are new opportunities now ahead of me. And then I met my Animus and everything just feels like it’s falling into place for once. I expect that I may have a few more of these dreams now where I’ll meet my Animus and talk to him. I have no idea how to meet him consciously, since all my conscious effort goes on my shadow. It maybe not even be possible since it’s partially hidden in the collective unconscious, but I will look it up. For now I just wanted to share all the amazing things that have been transforming inside me.
The future looks bright. I’m cutting old chains and moving forward. I am walking out of the dark and into the light. And despite my random bipolar moments I just feel so incredibly happy and whole for the first time in my life.