The last three months have been very intense for me. I decided to start meditating for five minutes in the night every three days and after four of those I woke up in the middle of the night in utter confusion with no recollection of who I was and a sense of dread gripping me from the inside. It was unpleasant to experience a panic attack after so long, triggered of course by the inordinate amount of energy I can suck up from the zero-point singularity when my mind is quieted. Suffice to say I didn’t sleep well that night, but I felt like I’d released a lot of anxious energy I didn’t know I was still carrying around.
It’s come to my attention since my entity removal session just how much work I have left to do on myself. My desire is to eventually be able to sit in Samadhi in meditation for hours on end with no need to eat, drink, or sleep. Such things are possible though not very well heard of. The reason mostly I want to be able to do this is to experience myself as fully myself in all potential, not only partly the way I currently am. Though I have a lot of presence as it is, I still feel where I lack. There are parts of me still trapped and unconscious and liberating them and myself is my goal.
I feel I’ve started that process again, as the entity was hindering me for the last year. Although it’s not true to say I made no progress at all as it was primarily towards getting me to a state where I could eject the entity from me in the least amount of pain possible. But it was a large block that took me a long time to deal with. And now I’ve had it removed I’ve felt a synergistic response throughout the rest of my chakras. My higher chakras for one have been a part of me that have been expanding, along with the opening of the ninth causal chakra behind the back of the head.
Feeling Kundalini rushing out that way instead of going up through my crown like normal was very odd, and as I was wondering about what it was and why it was happening, I noticed a strong shift in my perception taking place. Mostly in the area regarding time in relation to my multidimensional being. It’s been running round my head now for a while that time is not linear the way we imagine it to be, and that karma does not work linearly either. Although karma is not a force that controls us and only works within the matrix we have created for ourselves, inserting myself into it and then transcending it has allowed me to be aware of the true dynamics at play.
It started when I was sitting in the shower watching the water streaming onto my skin. In my own words:
I realise the general consensus is to see things as being pre-planned but I haven’t seen it that way for a long time now. I see everything that happens as being chosen by us here and now.
It was interesting when I was in the shower yesterday. I was lying down and seeing how the drops would fall on my skin and create streams of water. The stream would start at one place and end at another place, but thing is that I could see the entire stream. And if I moved just slightly I would change the course of the entire stream.
I also saw how the other drops could fall into the stream and make it wider or again change the direction… or even create sub-streams. It was very fascinating showing how our souls see the lives of their extensions being outside the temporal dimension.
This seeing into another world for a moment kickstarted a whole bunch of inquiry. How does time really work? People tend to see their lives as happening in static moments, not realising that like the stream of water they are actually dynamic streams of energy flowing on what looks like a map from above, where changing the past changes the future, and where changing the present changes the past. Everything happens ‘now’, and there is no time. Only what I call ‘temporal locations’. Time is a coordinate, and I have heard it explained by Bashar that way too (a channelled ET).
Our lives are not static moments, they are interconnected grids of dynamic energy which can be changed at any moment in time. Karma isn’t just the past controlling us, but the future influencing us. When we deal with our ‘karma’ in the present moment we actually change the past that created it so that it no longer exists. It’s also the same of the future. But once I realised this, the question I then needed to ask myself was: If time doesn’t exist, then where does the original timeline go?!
In my example in the shower the stream of energy morphed into a new one, leaving the original one in the past. But the past doesn’t exist, so therefore the original timeline still has to exist, alongside the new one. That absolutely blew my mind. I then thought over my life and how things had turned out. When I was two years old my life took a turn which I don’t think it originally meant to, but something in my ‘personal grid’ was influencing my present to turn that way. Because time is not static but instead dynamic, it must have been that I had an extension of myself in another ‘temporal space’ (e.g. the past) that caused that to happen. Because I attracted an abusive man into my life it makes sense to me that it was a direct result of being abusive myself in a way which affected my present two year old reality. Cause and effect. But I will get back to that later as it is slightly more complex than that.
So then, before I incarnated here I planned a certain path for my life, but because my soul did not predict what it/I was going to do in another temporal space I ended up deviating from my original path in this life. That created an alternate timeline. So I am not in the same timeline I was in when I was born. In order to make up for this my soul made new plans along with the help of my original higher self with yet again the help of my monad which actually had seen this coming the whole time since the higher up you go the more information you become aware of. It planned to get me back on track again, thereby deviating my timeline yet again. I have now made three parallel jumps since being born.
In order to get me back on track my ‘higher self’ made a visit. Now what I had realised is that your higher self is actually your future self. It’s who you are at the end of your energetic stream, when you remember yourself as one with your soul. Because time is not static your higher self watches over you during incarnation, helping you to integrate into yourself. In some cases people’s higher selves can change or even leave due to the timeline dynamics. I have a friend who’s soul didn’t predict its own ascension into a higher realm whilst it had its extension (my friend) incarnated. Because it couldn’t ascend whilst it had an incarnated extension my friend had to become an extension of a different soul. What this means was he jumped into a parallel timeline where his higher self was no longer his future self. His future self had shifted, leaving him without a higher self.
I am probably extremely confusing most people reading at this point, but to get back to my own story- I realised in order to get me back on track my higher self from my original timeline came to pay me a visit, so that I would integrate into it again the way I was meant to. It could do this because it had already remembered itself as my monad and had a wider view of our energetic dynamics, and so it had the ability to extend into an alternate timeline (whereas usually my higher self would’ve changed as a result of my future self becoming different). So my higher self stayed the same and projected itself into the timeline I’d deviated into in order to get me back on track. The result of it doing this was that I met my twin who kickstarted an awakening in me. It projected itself through him. And because my monad was really the instigator of the entire thing, there was no way I could fail to remember what I was really here for and be put back on track again.
My self-realisation experience was exactly that which happened- I jumped timelines again for the third time. So I jumped timelines again, not into my original timeline but into a new timeline that leads back to the future me I was meant to become. Although my path has been different to my original timeline, we will eventually end up the same place. It’s very interesting to think about meeting my alternate self directly once this is all over and not just feeling her energetically as a part of me. Of course there is also me on the original deviated timeline which is still headed for an untimely end unless I can integrate all the aspects of that me and completely change that timeline in this lifetime. This is somewhat similar to the process that is happening on the planet as it shifts, but that is more complex than I wish to delve into right now. Suffice to say that what happens on the planet really is a direct reflection of you. You shift realities all the time as a result of the choices you are making ‘in the now’.
Anyway, what this all means is that me as I am right now am actually an incarnated monadic expression extended through my future self into the present moment. This is what makes me ‘older than my years’, as I am fully spread across multiple temporal spaces across multiple universes. In truth all humans are like this, but they have forgotten who they are and so don’t have access to this type of information. The fear matrix in the third dimension has made most of us cut off from our future selves and entire God-Self, but I’m one of the few who have remembered since having my ninth chakra opened, and I hope to do something about it.
But first I have to continue dynamically altering my timelines… I have to change the past so I can change the future, I have to get in touch with the me that caused me to deviate in the first place to change the world, because that me was the one who made the world as it is today. Although the responsibility is not fully mine to take (my soul group shares the blame), the problems that we face on the planet today with the fear matrix and the ruling elite are the result of another extension of me creating that through a desire to experience duality. And that is why my original timeline diverted, because I was experiencing the effects of my own choices. I was the enslaver who created a world where I would become enslaved.
So, realising all this was extremely mind-blowing to me, talk about a revelation! I’m not just remembering past and future me’s, but also alternate me’s, which is really a proof that I am truly becoming more of who I actually am. As I clear out the fear inside me, I change my reality and remember my true origins. Not from other planets or civilisations, but from that which exists outside all universes- my God-Self.